give thanks unto my God of love, grace, mercy and truth. Thanks are to Him who knew the intentions of my heart,
spirit, soul and mind before I was born. He is my only source of life, naturally and spiritually.
Today as I was driving to work, God revealed to me how He intervenes into the life of such a man as I, to bring
forgiveness, restoration and blessings and not curses. He saw in me a willing heart while I was in the darkness of
trouble. I am humbled and faintly understand the magnificence and magnitude of His love for me and that He will
pursue me unto the ends of the earth until I would become exhausted and tired of living in a snare of the devil
because of sin – missing the loving kindness of His Presence. Sin is anything that separates us from God, including
While in such a state of denial that God cared about me personally, He was watching over me and withholding His
hand of judgment because He is slow to anger, full of compassion and forgiveness. He sent signs of His love to me,
and although I did not recognize or even acknowledge that He was present, He was standing, waiting with His heart
of love with wide open loving arms of comfort to draw me into His Presence. He was seeking for my wayward,
pleasure seeking soul to respond to Him.
The reason for my current state of happiness is because of His grace and leading me to a place where I could realize
my sorry condition and how I needed restoration.
One day in mid 2014, as I was walking down the hallway to obtain a drink from a manmade fountain of water, I
noted a trash can sitting outside the door of an individual who was cleaning out the office of person who had been
released by another company within the building in which I have an office.
I happened to look down at the trash can overflowing with trash and I noticed the corner of what looked like a rather
thick book under many worthless things. I noticed that the book was approximately 1.75 inches in thickness. What
caught my eye was pages of a book on the outside were lined in silver. Without recognizing it at the time, God had
placed something in my path that would become the source of restoration to my current circumstance of living
moment by moment in His presence.
I waited until everyone was gone around me and I inquisitively went to the trash can to see what my natural eye had
noticed. I quickly reached in and pulled it out, turned around and rushed back to my office afraid someone might see
me digging through the trash that was on the way to the local landfill.
When I reached the safety of my office with the book which had a cover that was worn, not because it was read, but
because the cover was made of a synthetic material, which when placed upon a surface of paper or wood, would stick
to the surface and some of the covering had pulled away as the book was picked up from that surface. I looked at the
book and realized it was a Bible that possibly had been read some in the past; but it was obvious it had not been read
very much because the pages were in picture perfect condition indicating it was seldom, if ever, read.
While the cover was tattered and looked terrible with pages in near perfect condition, I placed it into my computer
carrying case and took it home with me. It was a copy of the New Living Translation (Life Application Study Bible
by Tyndale House Publications, Inc, Second Edition, 2004) of the Bible.